Mereba’s song, ‘Get Free’ surfacing these days,
with headphones on, I listen.
I let my mind, body, heart feel it’s rhythms and words
before setting free
my own hand over keyboard
a deep longing to get free.
Anger, rage, tightness in my belly
knowing so many of us are in a ‘get by’ not a ‘get free’ kinda a way.
How to get free?
How to get free from habitual conditions, patterns, ways of being
embedded/inherited/thrusted upon us by a dominant cultural story?
Mereba’s song travels into my bones, tissues, flesh
reminding me over and over the work,
the journey, is to get free.
The work is to let this song
seep and stew and unfurl,
opening into spaces of who I am
beneath stories I did not create
but am now responsible.
How to dismantle, flick off, unravel, derail, untangle dictated versions of self?
Is their space in our lives to ‘get free’,
to hear that longing in the rhythm of a song,
to feel our nervous systems
going off in the middle of the night;
hearts beating, throats tightening, bellies deep diving?
Can we pay attention to our bodies telling us,
It is time to build, deepen, nurture conditions/containers,
strengthen intentions for ‘get free’ practices.
Don’t let the practice of distraction persist, endure, become
who we think we are, or may be.
How to become more and more intentional and attentional,
develop skills to show up for one self and others,
spacious and present,
full bodied, open hearted, brilliant minded.
As reverend angel says,
show up to the intelligences of body, heart, mind, gut and groin
(Yes! The groin too has an intelligence. If we could connect with this source of intelligence
there would be less and less sexual violence destroying our families and communities.)
The collective dominant story is a mash up,
eradicate people’s truth,
people’s natural, beautiful, inherently worthy self-truths.
The universe is longing for us
to be raw, beautiful, confused, raging, loving, quaking, fucked up, messed up, exquisitely real.
the universe is longing for us
to get free!